MY TEENAGE DAWN - POST(2)

MY TEENAGE DAWN-SATWIK YELIKE

POST 2:(CONTINUED FROM POST 1) :

I couldn't stop thinking about her that whole night. It went on to happen every day, every single time from then. I used to talk to a few girls earlier but I never had this kind of feeling. That was so special. I blame it on my teenage hormones. 

Yeah, that feeling was quite complicated. For the first time in my life, I was so interested to go to my classes not for studying but to just look at her. Those 'eye-locking' moments used to happen everytime but I wasn't sure if she even knew my name. I'm one of those people who get so much satisfaction from these kind of little things.

She used to give those sharp and  deep looks everytime and they absolutely killed me. From then I started to take care about my looks. I even bought some cosmetics and applied them everyday but the funniest thing was that the result was zero. My skin tone looked the same. Lol.

She used to come to college so early everyday along with her friends at the same time. The main gate was the only entrance to my college. Luckily, I got the perfect room from which I could see anyone passing through that main gate. I started doing some naughty things. Every morning I used to observe her dress colour through my room's window as she went through the main gate. I made sure that my dress colour always matched her dress colour. Wasn't that crazy? I think you too might have done it in your life atleast once.

I didn't know the name of that feeling then. I thought it was love. I used to follow her everywhere in the campus but made sure that she couldn't notice me. Nodody knows this.

Those 'eye-locking' moments became more often and they killed me from deep inside. That became so intense. I fell in love with that beautiful pain. Already three months had passed but we NEVER spoke to each other. There was also this strict rule that boys and girls were not allowed to talk to each other as I already told you, it was a typical Indian college. I was so afraid even to approach her. This was only my side. I didn't know if she too had the same feeling which I had towards her.

She looked like an angel to me. Her beauty used to bring so much grace to her dress and that smile.. ahhh... That used to kill me completely. As I already told you, her bench was right next to mine. I used to look at her secretly. I never told anyone about all these things. I hid them from everyone. These 'eye-locking moments happened everywhere, from classroom to dining hall and from steps to main gate. She used to give those intensified killer looks at me. I got lost with that sweetest pain everytime. 

She used to be among the top ten in our class everytime. My name used to be somewhere in the middle in the marks list. 'Eye-locking' even while checking the result at the notice board. Damn! That was so intense.

Then came this bombing news one day that our sections were going to be shuffled. Tears rolled off my eyes when I got to know that we'd no longer be allowed to sit in the same class.

It wasn't my Dawn who was sitting in that bench which was right next to mine. Dawn was sent to a higher section. She topped the exams always. I became so dull as another girl occupied my Dawn's seat.

The good things which didn't stop were those 'eye-locking' moments. Eventhough we were in different sections, we didn't stop looking into each other's eyes outside the classroom. Days passed and a complete year had passed but we NEVER EVER spoke to each other. I fell in love with that look she used to give at me. She always talked to me in my dreams, every night even though we never spoke to each other in the college. I always thought that she too might have had this same kind of feeling towards me.

(To be continued in the following posts...)