MY TEENAGE DAWN - POST (4)

MY TEENAGE DAWN

-SATWIK YELIKE

POST 4 : (CONTINUED FROM POSTS 1,2 & 3) :

So I secured a good rank in an esteemed university entrance examination and joined there. It was completely a new kind of environment which was completely opposite to that of my high school. You could differentiate girls from boys only if you look in a particular angle, if you know what I mean. There was this full hell of freedom. 

                  I made so many good friends there but still could not forget her. Facebook was the only way to know her whereabouts. I used to message her about all my good experiences in the university and she used to see all the messages but she never replied. However, one day she finally sent a message but it was not the kind of response I was waiting for. She messaged saying that she couldn't recognize me. My mind went blank. 

              "Doesn't she really know me?" "So, doesn't she really know my name at all?" "Did she look at everyone like how she looked at me?" "Is she squint eyed?" "Has she had those 'eye-locking' moments with others too?" "Does she already has a boyfriend?" "Am I doing it wrong?" These kind of questions killed me. Bringing back my cool, I sent my photo thinking that she might recognize me. As usual, there wasn't any reply from her. I couldn't conclude if she had recognized me or not. I felt like I was crushed by my crush.

It was't another Dawn that I was messaging to as the profile details were exactly the details of my Dawn. She joined in a very good university in another city. I was very happy for her. Incidentally, Nest too joined in the same college where Dawn too joined. I used to ask Nest about her casually while asking about other friends too who joined there so that he would never get a doubt. I literally wanted no one to know about all this. I felt like even if I tell anyone about all this, it might seem silly to them and I also thought that nobody could really understand how much that truly meant to me as that was so intense. 

           I got to know that my Dawn used to top in her university too. She's a real jem. Damn! I still couldn't get over that feeling. I realised that her birthday was arriving. I wished her exactly at 12:00 on her birthday by sending a message on facebook. Then this miracle happened. After an hour I got her reply. I asked her if she really knew me. She said yes. My happiness had no leaps and bounds. We chatted for some fifteen minutes. There were tears rolling off my eyes that whole time. I'm that kind of over emotional and over attached type of guy. I still couldn't understand why she initially told that she had not recognized me. I didn't ask her. What if she told that all that happened there in the college was just normal like how it was just in the case of others too? My heart has no such power to bear all that. So I left all that had happened behind and tried to change my mind.

    As days passed, I started to think what that feeling really was. Was that love? Was that attraction or all that happened was just infatuation? I soon realised that it was all attraction which meant that I had deep crush on her but that was insanely deep too. I can't put it  down in words here. 

One day I decided to tell her about all my feelings I had towards her. I dared to do it by messaging her on facebook. I revealed that I had crush on her and explained how I really felt about her during that whole time but I didn't want to know how she felt about all that happened and I would never want to know. Her reaction was exactly how I expected. She was wondered and asked me to leave all that happened. I don't know if we could start over again and still be good friends. I'm glad that I told her all the things I wanted to tell and how I felt about that feeling. We rarely talk now but I never forgot to wish her on her birthdays and I'll never stop wishing her. 

                 Dawn will always have a special place in my heart. I will never ever forget her. I know that I could never get over those 'eye-locking' moments. Just like the meaning of her name, Dawn brightened my dark heart with her beautiful daylight. I came to know that the feeling wasn't love or lust but she shall always remain as my 'Teenage Dreamqueen'. She gave me the true meaning of a 'TEENAGE CRUSH'. I don't think it was a mistake committed by me or her. If you consider that as a mistake, okay, that could be the sweetest mistake I had ever committed. I always wish her the best. You too must agree that having a crush on someone brings in a lot of excitement. Some people's crush may end up being their lover too but my story didn't reach there. I'm not sad that my story ended but happy that it left an awesome feeling and a great experience. I'll cherish this feeling throughout my life. The story of my Dawn has reached its Dusk.

                THE END

                   

                   

                   

      

                

MY TEENAGE DAWN - POST(3)

                 

MY TEENAGE DAWN - SATWIK YELIKE

'MY TEENAGE DAWN' is a novella about Denn and his high school teenage crush Dawn.

POST 3 :(CONTINUED FROM POSTS 1 & 2)

As days passed, my feelings towards her strengthened gradually. Those 'eye-locking' moments continued to happen everytime. I never thought about the name of that feeling. I secured a good percentage in the first year but I couldn't beat her in studies anyway. 

I literally enjoyed that awesome feeling from those 'eye-locking' moments. As I told you, those used to happen ever time in the campus. As usual, we NEVER spoke to each other. Did I tell you? We weren't even allowed to use mobile phones.

That was the last month of my second(final) year of my intermediate. The fact that I never got a chance to talk to her was killing me from deep inside. I wanted to talk to her so badly. I tried in many different ways to approach her but each time I tried, there would be some other girls or the teachers which made the situations impossible for me. I didn't want anyone to know about all this stuff. My heart began to sink.

We wrote our final exams. It was the last day of my college(high school) which means that I would never be able to see her again. That thought had driven me sick. No farewell was officially organised the campus. Boys and girls were not allowed to talk to each other even on the last day of our college. The boys bid farewell and left the classrooms.

I wanted to talk to her so badly. I followed her in the campus but she had no clue that I was following her. I got to know that the girls would be leaving within ten minutes. Those could be the final ten minutes if I might never get a chance to see her again. I saw my Dawn coming out of a room and I started following her. The worst part was that her friends too joined her on her way. The problem was that I was not dare enough to talk to her infront of all those other people who were with her. They started to climb-down the steps. I still followed them expecting for a chance to talk to her. I felt so sad that I missed all the previous chances to talk to her and I totally missed this chance too. She was climbing down the stairs and I was at the top of the staircase still expecting her to look at me. I still don't know how it happened but then happened the last 'EYE LOCKING' moment. She looked at me, for the final time before leaving the college. I didn't understand how to react at that instant. She finally left the college in the college bus. So many questions blew my mind like, what might have been her thoughts at that point of time? what might have been her feelings? I couldn't think about anything but her.

The summer vacation had finally arrived and we went home as our intermediate education had come to an end. I was still feeling sad that I could not talk to her. I only had regrets. I still had those strong feelings towards her. I wanted to talk to her. But how? I neither had her mobile number nor I knew any details on how to approach her. 

That was the time when facebook was getting popular among all the youth. As soon as I got to know that many people were on facebook, I too signed up and created my account. Searching for her name was the first thing I did. After a full day of severe online struggle of hunting, I finally found her profile. I immediately sent her friend request. I messaged her saying just "Hey Dawn!! How are you?" I waited that whole day to know if she recognized me and if she accepted my friend request. 

The next day when I logged in, I found that she had seen my message. I was so happy that she had seen it but the saddest part was there was no reply nor the confirmation of friend request. I sent another message saying "Hey Dwan! This is Denn from high school. How are you?" I checked my inbox frequently to know if she had read that message. On the next day too, nothing new had happened. There wasn't any confirmation nor a reply but she had seen the message. It went to happen for two weeks. I was tired texting her and waiting for her response. I thought that she might not have recognized me.

(TO BE CONTINUED IN THE FOLLOWING POSTS...)

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MY TEENAGE DAWN - POST(2)

MY TEENAGE DAWN-SATWIK YELIKE

POST 2:(CONTINUED FROM POST 1) :

I couldn't stop thinking about her that whole night. It went on to happen every day, every single time from then. I used to talk to a few girls earlier but I never had this kind of feeling. That was so special. I blame it on my teenage hormones. 

Yeah, that feeling was quite complicated. For the first time in my life, I was so interested to go to my classes not for studying but to just look at her. Those 'eye-locking' moments used to happen everytime but I wasn't sure if she even knew my name. I'm one of those people who get so much satisfaction from these kind of little things.

She used to give those sharp and  deep looks everytime and they absolutely killed me. From then I started to take care about my looks. I even bought some cosmetics and applied them everyday but the funniest thing was that the result was zero. My skin tone looked the same. Lol.

She used to come to college so early everyday along with her friends at the same time. The main gate was the only entrance to my college. Luckily, I got the perfect room from which I could see anyone passing through that main gate. I started doing some naughty things. Every morning I used to observe her dress colour through my room's window as she went through the main gate. I made sure that my dress colour always matched her dress colour. Wasn't that crazy? I think you too might have done it in your life atleast once.

I didn't know the name of that feeling then. I thought it was love. I used to follow her everywhere in the campus but made sure that she couldn't notice me. Nodody knows this.

Those 'eye-locking' moments became more often and they killed me from deep inside. That became so intense. I fell in love with that beautiful pain. Already three months had passed but we NEVER spoke to each other. There was also this strict rule that boys and girls were not allowed to talk to each other as I already told you, it was a typical Indian college. I was so afraid even to approach her. This was only my side. I didn't know if she too had the same feeling which I had towards her.

She looked like an angel to me. Her beauty used to bring so much grace to her dress and that smile.. ahhh... That used to kill me completely. As I already told you, her bench was right next to mine. I used to look at her secretly. I never told anyone about all these things. I hid them from everyone. These 'eye-locking moments happened everywhere, from classroom to dining hall and from steps to main gate. She used to give those intensified killer looks at me. I got lost with that sweetest pain everytime. 

She used to be among the top ten in our class everytime. My name used to be somewhere in the middle in the marks list. 'Eye-locking' even while checking the result at the notice board. Damn! That was so intense.

Then came this bombing news one day that our sections were going to be shuffled. Tears rolled off my eyes when I got to know that we'd no longer be allowed to sit in the same class.

It wasn't my Dawn who was sitting in that bench which was right next to mine. Dawn was sent to a higher section. She topped the exams always. I became so dull as another girl occupied my Dawn's seat.

The good things which didn't stop were those 'eye-locking' moments. Eventhough we were in different sections, we didn't stop looking into each other's eyes outside the classroom. Days passed and a complete year had passed but we NEVER EVER spoke to each other. I fell in love with that look she used to give at me. She always talked to me in my dreams, every night even though we never spoke to each other in the college. I always thought that she too might have had this same kind of feeling towards me.

(To be continued in the following posts...)

MY TEENAGE DAWN (POST 1)

MY TEENAGE DAWN - SATWIK YELIKE

Hey guys, hope you'll like my first novella 'MY TEENAGE DAWN'. It's a story about Denn and his teenage crush Dawn. POST 1 :

That was the first day of my Intermediate(High school). My friend Nest and I planned to join in this same college and we did. It was a huge campus and the classes already started to take place. The next day I got to know that Nest and I would be sitting in different sections. I was scared as I knew no one. It was a co-ed college. Girls there were so good looking. 

The next morning, I went to the class so early thinking I could make some new friends.

 The total strength was around 50 and only 20 of them were girls but all of them were so good looking.  I sat in the first bench. 

Right beside my bench then came this beautiful, beautiful girl. She immedialtely got my eyes on her. During the introductory class when she was about to introduce herself, one idiot called me to ask something and I missed knowing her name. She soon started talking to other girls so effortlessly and I understood that she already made some good friends but the only thing I was sad about is that I didn't know her name. I didn't look at other girls except her. I felt so homely when I first saw her. I forgot to tell you it was a boarding school. I was very shy and scared to talk to girls then. 

My ears caught her beautiful voice as there was not much gap between our two benches but only three feet. Of course boys and girls were not allowed to sit together. It was a typical Indian college.

I was not so good looking then. I had an opinion that beautiful girls only talk to charming boys. I used to look like an innocent puppy among all those big, tall guys.

I made some good friends on the first day itself. It was a good day. That picture of her face was still moving in my eyes. My teenage heart began to fly. Nest and I took a room together in the hostel along with three other guys. We all began talking to eachother and I already knew that they were good.

I couldn't sleep properly as it was my first day there in the hostel. Well, it was air conditioned. Nest and I got up early. We had our breakfast. The food wasn't so good but I lied to my parents that it was good just because I didn't want them to get worried. Of course, nothing beats the taste of our home made food. 

I was on my way to my class but I could spot my angel walking even though she was in a crowd far away. I was so desperate to know her name. Then a girl from the other side screamed "Hey DAWN!!".

Wow! That's a strange name but I loved it. 

Yay! I got to know her name. That morning's class was the one I could never forget because that was the first time I got stars in my eyes. She was looking through the window which was on my side. I turned towards her involuntarily and I don't know how, she too looked at me and we both got our eyes locked for five seconds. That literally brought stars in my eyes. I'm telling you, STARS literally! It was quick though.

(To be continued in the next post...)